Time Flies So Fast - Week 35

After I knew you were in my belly, the time really went fast. Now It's less than 40 days until you're due.

But after my mom (your grandma) left here, I realized I have only your papa as family. Nobody else here. In Japan, there is always somebody at home. I can always talk with someone. And I know I can't make up for this feeling with friends. Friends are different for me. I need stronger and more relaxing relationships. That's family. I want to share many feelings together. I want to talk and hear about everything with family. I'm looking forward to meeting you. I can have another family member here.

Yes, but I'm nervous everyday. Especially because I'm living in America. So I worry if I miss some information or misunderstand something. Many things are different from Japan. I feel like I want to be 120% sure more than usual.  It makes me nervous, more and more. I know maybe it's too much sometimes.

Usual Im not like this. more easy going. Last time when I met uncle Atsushi, he also told me how much of a "gritty" person I am. He said If he were me, he can't be like me in America.

These few days, you don't move a lot. Only during the morning time you move well. Instead of your kick, I have pain in the lower abdomen. Last night I was putting the sheets on the bed. After that I really felt sick some pain so I felt "Yabai" and stopped what I was doing.

Maybe that's a sign that we can meet soon? At the same time, I'm not ready for the hospital. So the other meaning, "Yabai."

P.S.  Please bring her back with you, Kogumachan.