Morning Baby - 125 Days

Every morning before I leave for work I stop by your crib (quietly) and look at you for awhile. Sometimes you are awake, but usually you are sleeping. Sometimes you are swaddled nice and tight, often your blanket is open and your arms are up by your head. Sometimes you are crying, sometimes talking...sometimes you are just looking around. It's always different.

I try to take a photo, but the light is low and my iPhone camera doesn't do well. This morning you were awake and talking to yourself. You were smiling a lot. I wanted to take a photo but I accidentally dropped my phone on your chest. It was a short drop and you were awake, but you still cried. It was a bit of a shock for you. Of course as soon as I picked you up you settled down and started smiling again.

I think already you were a little mad at us. Yesterday you went to the doctor for your four month check. You had to get some vaccinations (again). You got two shots and some liquid medicine. When you got the first shot at two months, you really didn't cry much. Just a little. This time though, I know you felt the pain for real. You let out the loudest, sharpest scream I have ever heard. Mama couldn't watch. I tried to make you feel better, and soon after the shots, I calmed you down.

It made me feel good. Yesterday and this morning you were screaming in pain (one was real, one was just shock)...but I could calm you down. It made me feel a new connection to you. It made me feel good.